Ruben Journey to Life

Sometimes obsession with something is needed, for example to learn something.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that commiting to study something is the first step to being successful I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that obsessing about something I am studying is a way to become successful at it I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I become obsessed with something that I want to study I won't become successful at it I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the practicality of becoming obsessed about a subject I want to study I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the solution of becoming obsessesd with something to become good at it I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there is nothing...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have more views in the blog I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that not everybody wants to keep up with the blog I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have to write the blogs for myself and not for others I forgive myself that I have acepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am more important than however many views the blog gets at this moment I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge as difficult to write a blog instead of seeing it is from the mind I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am prioritary I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I don't change its of not use to try to make people and things change I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see,...

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am perfect the way I am as who I really am I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the parts of me that are not who I really am don't define me I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I don't have to be hard on myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe who I really am is something that will come later instead of seeing that it is here as me in every moment I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am not enough I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how awesome I am I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put myself down I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am already my best version that I can be within what I have been able to achieve/attain I ...

 Sometimes I want to help others, and it is fine but I have to assess if I can because sometimes helping people comes from a point of ego/being superior/being a savior and furthermore I can't afford to help them. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the ego design of being a savior I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that first and foremost I have to help myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place myself in a superior point than others and want to help them from that standing point I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not assess if I can afford to help people before I do I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not assess if helping someone will be counterproductive to their process/path I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that sometimes helping means not helping someone I forgive ...

Yesterday I was almost run over by a car, in fact I was hit at low speed on my left arm, which folded the right rear view mirror. I was going somewhere I didn't want to go to.  It made me think  - do I want to die like this, or change? I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am the directive principle of my life - and that unless I direct change I will not get to any desired goal I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have desires I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that in life I have to know what it is I want to experience and walk towards it I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I decide who I want to be - I will not be who I want to be I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear change I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see t...

 Sometimes I think I am alone then I see it is AllOne. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am alone I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that it is fine to be alone I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have to do what I see I have to do, wether alone or in company I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am never truly alone I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not enjoy my own company I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that if I don't enjoy my own company I won't be able to enjoy being with someone else I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be grateful for having myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I ...

  There is a story about a man that dies and goes to heaven, looking back at his life he could see that the periods where it had been most difficult in his life there were only the footprints of one person, while the other times there was two pair of footprints, one from the guy and another form Jesus by his side.  How is it so? The guy asked. - That you left me at my most difficult times? To which Jesus replied 'because during the most different times I was carrying you'. I am not Jesus and do not believe in cristianity but the story is cool, while at the same time a reminder to not take too much on me, for example, but letting others take responsibility for themselves I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to carry others instead of carrying myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I need to help myself and should not be giving my power away I forgive myself that I have accepted and allo...

Compassion  1. a deep awareness of and sympathy for another's suffering  2. the humane quality of understanding the suffering of others and wanting to do something about it Don't we see that capitalism is like a game of monopoly we are playing in real time? You obviously see the many that go unfed and unsheltered yet, what to do, everyone ignores them so I will ignore them too !  The need of a new system is obvious and yet people does not stand up for it except very few, in time we will be many and the new system - an Equal Money System will be implemented. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry because people don't stand up for an Equal Money System I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have to become the best version of myself and that is all I can do I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look for change outside myself instead of seeing what I can do for myself first I forgive ...

 Sometimes when I say no I feel guilty, when someone asks for help involving money for example, although I have to remind myself I am not the only person in the world that they can ask for money and above all I have to assess my financial situation before I can say yes. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty when I say no to someone I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to say yes to people to not feel guilty  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be a savior I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feed my ego whenever I help someone with money I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compromise my situation with money whenever I say yes and I can't afford it to give money I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can't always 'be a savior' of whoever asks me for money I forgive myself that I ha...

  7:11 in front of Seven Eleven in Vejle. I gave my pack of cigarettes to an unkempt young guy looking at the ashtrays in front of the train station; I've been there. He was drinking and doing strange stretches with his arms, completely absorbed on himself with the hoodie on. He must have ran out of money with the alcohol, I was never a fan of this drug but I understand why people do - to forget, to make things endurable - while it makes things compound instead. I have a few coins on me but I know not to give money after many times I've ran out doing exactly that. This month I am helping a colleague from work that lost it all gambling. Last time I do it and not the last time that he will gamble - it's strong on him. I never gambled more than one or two hundred euros total but I took drugs instead. It looks like everyone is trying to avoid this reality in their own way. My hunger for drugs was having experiences, being more experienced in life, and possibly changing my life...

A calibrated mind that does only what's Best for All - that's the only goal worth pursuing I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that through my blogs and vlogs I am calibrating my mind to only do what's Best for All I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am imperfect I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that to believe I am flawed is an excuse to not stand up for what is Best for All I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I walk my process I will indeed be flawed I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take responsibility for fixing myself  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can take responsibility for myself and for All I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ...

  Today I had a dream where many hugged me and others danced, it was 'acceptance' and 'recognition' the words that come up about this dream, wherere I was hugged and a performance/dance was done 'for me' - and there were famous people around. I enjoyed it, even a cat came by my side and gave me affection. I wake up from this dream like I had longed for this kind of recognition that it finally had materialized in a dream. From this I see how I like and want recognition and approval in my day to day life, so here is some self-forgiveness. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want recognition for my work I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want recognition for standing up for Life I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not recognize myself and instead wanting others to recognize me I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want approval from others I forgive myself that I have acc...

 There are billions who live lives of untold suffering and pain currently, who would do anything to be in my shoes or of those in 'first world countries'. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the gift of life I have been given I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up even when I have everything I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the billions that suffer whenever I want to give up I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand the extent of luck I have had I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that if I were unfortunate like billions of people are, I would like for those that are able to = to stand up for themselves to change the world I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to argue for my limitations I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let feelings o...

Watch this interivew for more context I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe when I die I will ascend I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blieve in ascension I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand my greed in wanting light and love while disregarding and leaving this world in a mess I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the only solution is Equality on Earth I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to and try to run away from the problems of this Earth by believing in something greater like ascension at death I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not do basic math to see that disregarding Equality has a consequence of not continuing after death / ascension is fraud I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in light and love I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my...

Read these aloud if you are a gambler, even occasionally  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to gamble I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to experience the feel good of winning at gambling I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider gambling all my money I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that gambling is mathematically designed for me to lose over time I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard common sense when wanting to gamble I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can't go against a mathematical certainty I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep playing even if I lose I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the obvious that the casino/gambling is a place to lose, and very few win I forgive myself that...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a secret agenda of survival instead of standing up for Equality unconditionally  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that life is simple when I commit to do what is Best for All I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to indulge in behaviors that are not Best for Me I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the very thing I resist is what I should do I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall for energy every time I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to indulge in thinking I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see I can stop my thoughts I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I walk the practical application of Self Forgiveness I will not change I forgive myself that I have accepted and...

  There is no tomorrow, show me 'tomorrow' = You can't because it is not real. I have started to see that to live without regret is to never leave anything for later, later also is of the mind - if I can do it I do it immediately, if I can't I will do it at another moment - I assess with self-honesty I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to procrastinate I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that procrastination is of the mind I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that later and tomorrow do not exist in fact I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not remind me of the 'do it or die' help to do things immediately as they are available I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as incompetent when leaving things for later I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not kick the habit of procrastination I forgive myself th...

Every time I start a blog it is obviously blank - this means I am the creator.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up my self-responsibility as a creator and co-creator of this world I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up responsibility for creating myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that all the things I don't like about myself = I have created - thus I can change them I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I change - nothing of me will change I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist change, in self interest and wanting to win as ego I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I came into this world as a blank slate - and I can revert again to a blank slate through self-forgiveness and self honesty and practical application I forgive myself t...

Listen to  this interview by Bernard Pooman for context I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to squander my inheritance instead of doing what is best for all I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to squander my inheritance through ingesting substances that are not good for the body and mind I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to instead of building my finances - squander them I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that having good finances is good for me and thus for all I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to squander my inheritance in free choice despite knowing of the consequences I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard my physical body I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not forgive myself unconditionally for everything always I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see...

Imagine T. Edison stopped when 100 prototypes of the light bulb failed, or your father doubted and didn't approach your mother - or vice versa, and the list goes on - Failing to act is the sure way to fail while success is inevitable in action - eventually. Relentless is the word. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hype myself to only go into a negative later I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that depression is an attempt to control my environment I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that there is something that I want that I perceive I can't have when I get depressed I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to enjoy the hype energy instead of simply walking the commitments I make I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to stop writing - instead of seeing, relizing and understanding that I will not give up until I stand I for...