Ruben Journey to Life

Yesterday I was almost run over by a car, in fact I was hit at low speed on my left arm, which folded the right rear view mirror. I was going somewhere I didn't want to go to.  It made me think  - do I want to die like this, or change? I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am the directive principle of my life - and that unless I direct change I will not get to any desired goal I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have desires I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that in life I have to know what it is I want to experience and walk towards it I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I decide who I want to be - I will not be who I want to be I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear change I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see t...

  There is no tomorrow, show me 'tomorrow' = You can't because it is not real. I have started to see that to live without regret is to never leave anything for later, later also is of the mind - if I can do it I do it immediately, if I can't I will do it at another moment - I assess with self-honesty I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to procrastinate I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that procrastination is of the mind I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that later and tomorrow do not exist in fact I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not remind me of the 'do it or die' help to do things immediately as they are available I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as incompetent when leaving things for later I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not kick the habit of procrastination I forgive myself th...

I've realized that I am able to stand up for myself no matter where I come from, what I've done or where I find myself in this moment. Some will have to stand up from having commited adultery, some will stand up from having commited other crimes, some will stand up from an addiction, it doesn't matter. Looking back it is only lost time, and instead of wallowing in despair because of the Past, I realize the past is passed, it doesn't matter what it is because it is already gone, what matters is this very breath now, and there is nothing I can do that will prevent me from standing up for myself. For example I can decide to stand up for myself in this breath or believe that by commiting any other action I will be exempt from standing up for myself - that is not so - I will Still have to stand up for myself whatever I have done. Stop the trap of thinking/believing that by doing something extravagant I will be exempt, no, I still am responsible to stand up for myself and for...

  I forgive myself that I have acepted and allowed myself to not be here as breath in every moment of breath I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am alone I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that my father is always with me I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can seize the opportunity to stand up in every moment of breath I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can stop myself from falling I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that 'falling' is an excuse to not stand up/ postpone standing up I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to victimize myself when I fall instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that all fall is Self-fall I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I am responsible for All I do and say I forgive myself that I have...