Ruben Journey to Life

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trap myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am trapped I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am trapping myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I can be trapped I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am trapped by my own beliefs I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my own beliefs I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am a convict of my own convictions I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am free I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that my only freedom is to choose what is Best for All every time I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that none is free until All are free I forgive myself that I have accepted a...

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am alone I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am never alone I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to take shortcuts I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe it is difficult to stand up for myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have to practically change myself and not try to change the world I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be hard on myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need masturbation I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up on myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I don't direct myself I will live out a preprogrammed life I forgive myself that I have accepted a...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to always win and if I perceive I lose become angry I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe winning is winning, not seeing that it isn't necessarily so, winning is losing also I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that losing doesn't have to be necessarily negative or a disadvantage  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to concern myself with winning and losing I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that my wants are not always the best for me I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that wether I lose or win it is only a perception of the ego I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I get what I want it will be what I need I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that wanting and desire are but a burden I forgive myself ...

 Who am I to say that it is a bad day? Well, if something doesn't come out the way I want I can say that it has been 'a bad day' but the problem is, to begin with, in wanting things to come out in a certain way. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want things to come out a certain way instead of unconditionally accepting reality I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that it is not about not doing anything to create my reality but in doing to my utmost degree and then accept whatever outcome there is - and keep pushing for change that is best for All I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to utilize fear of change in self interest to keep participating in activities that are pleasurable but not supportive or downright abuse such as watching porn. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I change I will become homeless, in self interest, to not have to stop abusing watching...