Day 19: Judge Not


 Who am I to say that it is a bad day? Well, if something doesn't come out the way I want I can say that it has been 'a bad day' but the problem is, to begin with, in wanting things to come out in a certain way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want things to come out a certain way instead of unconditionally accepting reality

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that it is not about not doing anything to create my reality but in doing to my utmost degree and then accept whatever outcome there is - and keep pushing for change that is best for All

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to utilize fear of change in self interest to keep participating in activities that are pleasurable but not supportive or downright abuse such as watching porn.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I change I will become homeless, in self interest, to not have to stop abusing watching porn

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can apply myself to the best of my ability and then be okay with the outcome/reality and keep pushing for change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the level to which I am functional or disfunctional is programable in a programable world and thus every day I can drop that which does not serve me and pick up more capacity to influence my reality/direct my reality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that 'bad days' are but a judgement

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have to accept reality as the first step to be able to change it - if it is possible

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that 'doing my best' to live and become the best version of myself is within my reach/I can do it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge a day as 'bad' or 'good' instead of seeing what it is that I can make different next time, and forgive myself and let it go

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to give myself the opportunity to 'give it my all' in every moment of breath

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that if I 'give it my all' then there can't be good or bad days but it will be what I have been able to achieve or not - yet - .

I commit myself to give it my all in every moment of breath

I commit myself to remind myself that I can give it my all in every moment of breath

I commit myself to remind myself that giving less than my all is abuse in fact

I commit myself to remind myself to breathe 

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