Ruben Journey to Life

Every time I start a blog it is obviously blank - this means I am the creator.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up my self-responsibility as a creator and co-creator of this world I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up responsibility for creating myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that all the things I don't like about myself = I have created - thus I can change them I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I change - nothing of me will change I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist change, in self interest and wanting to win as ego I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I came into this world as a blank slate - and I can revert again to a blank slate through self-forgiveness and self honesty and practical application I forgive myself t...

Liam Payne passed away recently, here is some self forgiveness that could have helped.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I don't have a solution I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not ask for help I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I can fight my demons on my own without help I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the dark always wins over the light when issues are unresolved I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take drugs I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make the final decision to end my life I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that suicide is never the solution I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am alone I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am not alone I ...

  The guy from the ambulance said I have a strong heart. I tried to 'commit suicide' by tensing really hard my upper body, it didn't work, I was upset that no one was kind on that train I was on, only old hags and a stupid youngster. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to escape this reality I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have a heart attack and die I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I must be here with all others to solve this mess I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I can escape this reality by dying I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be man enough until now to stand up for myself effectively I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I cannot change this reality I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I a...

 Courage is what it takes to uphold commitments, self-trust, self-honesty, why don't I do it or better said how have I not done it up until now?  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not uphold my commitments up until now I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my words are empty I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the absolute power in my words I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that every time I uphold my commitments I become stronger and vice versa I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have what it takes to uphold my commitments I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I should not make a commitment if I am not prepared to uphold it I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am ready to uphold any commitment t...

What is the Real value here on Earth? Gold? Petroleum? Gas? While some of those are useful, they are not the real value. Money is not the Real value either, although it acts as if it is. The Real Value on  Earth is Life itself. And we have to equate Life to Money, giving money to All Life equally and abundantly enough so that All Life may thrive and be supported to the last requeriment for it to live a dignified life. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget the Real Value as Life that I am as well. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value in things like money and other material things instead of Life itself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that the problem is in front of my eyes, in the homeless and the struggling  and the extinction of animals I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to poison my body for entertainment instead of using it to hono...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be negative towards everything I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to have things that I don't have I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not appreciate what I have I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not write the blog every day as much as I can I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not place into perspective my situation with for example the people that is in wars currently I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to my living situation I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to despise my life I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that life is how I take it I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to get attention from others I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not give attention to myself I forgive mysel...

  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in depression I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to  believe depression is real I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am strength I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am capable of forgiving myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe depression is stronger than me I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe depression is stronger than me I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe depression can have power over me I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have power over what I experience I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am inferior only over what I believe I am ...

  Thank you for reading this lines, thank you for  not giving up, thank you for, eventhough you have some doubts, continuing forward with your quest. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear change I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear loss I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lose myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear fear I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be here as Breath I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe making mistakes is wrong I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear making mistakes I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the greatness of mistakes I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear love I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear missing something I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myse...

When I went to San Diego I started to see it, but man, when I went to Miami to the second Self Perfected event I found a group of people that, rather than 'obnoxiously perfect' were rather of a different kind! I was able to connect on a deeper level to everyone I talked to for more than a few minutes, and it was super interesting to see how applying the tools of the group they developed themselves and changed themselves so much! I am excited as to what the next event will hold! I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I can make it on my own I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I can change the world by myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the power and strength lies in the group I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am one alone but together we are a force to reckon I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my...

  I see it is not enough to say 'what I want' as a World that is Best for All, I have to walk it. I am listening to the Reptilians Interviews in EQAFE, suggest to listen with. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stop. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want the world to change, instead of changing myself. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that unless I stop I cannot possibly want the world to stop. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pay lip service to world change. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that unless I change nothing will change for me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to drive myself to the edge of my destruction instead of building myself in every breath. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to paint a pretty picture of myself, instead of facing my...

 A dream. I was with a relative playing a kind of golf game. I had betted everything I own. It was my turn to shoot. It was an easy shot, but I didn't feel confident on taking it - so I let my relative shoot it. He completely missed the shot. What I understand from this dream is, in life we bet everything - because at end we die - so it is best to trust myself and shoot my shots, never let anyone do it for me. Hit or miss, I will shoot my shots. If I don't do it I will forever wonder 'what if'. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want others to decide for me.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that even if I miss it's best to trust myself and take action. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up on my decisions I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be flaky in my decisions I forgive m...

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trap myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am trapped I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am trapping myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I can be trapped I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am trapped by my own beliefs I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my own beliefs I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am a convict of my own convictions I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am free I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that my only freedom is to choose what is Best for All every time I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that none is free until All are free I forgive myself that I have accepted a...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be famous I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that only by being famous others will listen to me I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be heard by everyone else I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire attention I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not look at myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am fine without anyones attention I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that if I am fine by myself alone then I don't need anyones' attention I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be recognized I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to  not recognize myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abandon myself I forgive myself that I have accep...

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am alone I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am never alone I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to take shortcuts I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe it is difficult to stand up for myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have to practically change myself and not try to change the world I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be hard on myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need masturbation I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up on myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I don't direct myself I will live out a preprogrammed life I forgive myself that I have accepted a...

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am separate I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to find boring writing I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am done I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard all other life I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be special I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to go first before others I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that when I see I can't unsee I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear responsibility I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be done I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to make process instead of simply doing my best always I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe process is too difficult I forgive myself that I have acce...

  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want outside change to happen instead of changing myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect change from others instead of me changing myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I don't have to wait for anyone in order to change I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am in charge of my own Change I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want change to come from the outer instead of seeing that it can come from the inner as well I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that definitive change always come from the inner and if it comes from the outer it is usually too late I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want change to come form the outer instead of seeing that I can will it from the inner/from me I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my...

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am capable of all that I set my mind to do I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself by looking at my past I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can become more in every moment of breath I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to my past I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I am not my past I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become bored instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that I am going through a process of detox from all addictions I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge boredom as bad I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have to give myself purpose I forgive myself that I have accepted and...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have back doors I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have other 'ways out' other than walk within principle no matter what I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that 'other ways' that are not Best for All are simply abuse I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I will only eat shit if I have back doors I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that standing up is an 'option' I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand up for myself in every single breath I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I am my own sentencer through what I do  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am not enough to stand up for myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that life is conspiring to be free I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I am not separate I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am enough I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am One and Equal as Life I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up on myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect from others I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand up for myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the common sense of Oneness and Equality I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am my thoughts I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe we are separate I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to distract myself in behaviors such as porn ...

Already going - and we are on day 2 - already going into Ego. Superiority. Bullshit.  The whole point of the process to Life is to become One and Equal - Oneness and Equality on Earth. Second day, becoming confident and cocky, instead of seeing, realising and understanding that I have to be alert, watchful as nothing is guaranteed in this world and maybe - maybe - I will not get to live long enough to make it in this life. But I will leave this blogs, and writings, and interviews/vlogs. Confidence is not bad but feeling superior to others is, more than 'bad' is that is Separation. If I believe I am better I am saying that the other person is Less - and this is simply not true. A being that crossed over and lived a point that he died without transcending, and then shared it on EQAFE.com as a Life review, I take my hat off for him/her. But in my great 'becoming' I saw myself as superior, big mistake. We are all One and Equal as Life as who we really are in Oneness and Equ...