Day 56: Lip Service

 

I see it is not enough to say 'what I want' as a World that is Best for All, I have to walk it.

I am listening to the Reptilians Interviews in EQAFE, suggest to listen with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stop.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want the world to change, instead of changing myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that unless I stop I cannot possibly want the world to stop.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pay lip service to world change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that unless I change nothing will change for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to drive myself to the edge of my destruction instead of building myself in every breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to paint a pretty picture of myself, instead of facing my reality as what I do, who I am in what I do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to live my desires, needs and wants.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can't possibly fulfill myself by chasing my wants.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not put the needs of All before any of my perceived needs, wants and desires.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am my wants, needs and desires.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to fuck around instead of finding solutions for self and the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that unless I give Life I will not receive Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that in giving Life to all I will receive Life One and Equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am limited.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am limited as long as I participate in energy of wants, needs and desires.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my wants, needs and desires is what I want, need and desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the price I have to pay for following my wants, needs and desires.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not give up my wants, needs and desires this one life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to walk my process instantly.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the time it took to 'fuck myself up' is the time that I will need to 'unfuck myself' - at least 7 years of deconstructing myself to build myself up as Life after.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am giving up nothing for everything.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that giving my wants, needs and desires up is but a simple decision that I can take in every moment of breath so that life is free.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to say that I want a world that is Best for All while in reality I have other wants, needs and desires that I am following/chasing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I won't be able to chase my wants, needs and desires of the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to worry about how long it will take for me to stop my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that it doesn't matter how long it takes for me to stop the mind, I will have to do it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that it is way easier to solve this one life for myself than to walk the entire Universal process of everything. (See Reptilians on EQAFE)