Ruben Journey to Life

A calibrated mind that does only what's Best for All - that's the only goal worth pursuing I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that through my blogs and vlogs I am calibrating my mind to only do what's Best for All I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am imperfect I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that to believe I am flawed is an excuse to not stand up for what is Best for All I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I walk my process I will indeed be flawed I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take responsibility for fixing myself  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can take responsibility for myself and for All I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ...

  Today I had a dream where many hugged me and others danced, it was 'acceptance' and 'recognition' the words that come up about this dream, wherere I was hugged and a performance/dance was done 'for me' - and there were famous people around. I enjoyed it, even a cat came by my side and gave me affection. I wake up from this dream like I had longed for this kind of recognition that it finally had materialized in a dream. From this I see how I like and want recognition and approval in my day to day life, so here is some self-forgiveness. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want recognition for my work I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want recognition for standing up for Life I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not recognize myself and instead wanting others to recognize me I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want approval from others I forgive myself that I have acc...

Watch this interivew for more context I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe when I die I will ascend I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blieve in ascension I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand my greed in wanting light and love while disregarding and leaving this world in a mess I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the only solution is Equality on Earth I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to and try to run away from the problems of this Earth by believing in something greater like ascension at death I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not do basic math to see that disregarding Equality has a consequence of not continuing after death / ascension is fraud I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in light and love I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a secret agenda of survival instead of standing up for Equality unconditionally  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that life is simple when I commit to do what is Best for All I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to indulge in behaviors that are not Best for Me I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the very thing I resist is what I should do I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall for energy every time I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to indulge in thinking I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see I can stop my thoughts I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I walk the practical application of Self Forgiveness I will not change I forgive myself that I have accepted and...

  There is no tomorrow, show me 'tomorrow' = You can't because it is not real. I have started to see that to live without regret is to never leave anything for later, later also is of the mind - if I can do it I do it immediately, if I can't I will do it at another moment - I assess with self-honesty I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to procrastinate I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that procrastination is of the mind I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that later and tomorrow do not exist in fact I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not remind me of the 'do it or die' help to do things immediately as they are available I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as incompetent when leaving things for later I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not kick the habit of procrastination I forgive myself th...

Every time I start a blog it is obviously blank - this means I am the creator.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up my self-responsibility as a creator and co-creator of this world I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up responsibility for creating myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that all the things I don't like about myself = I have created - thus I can change them I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I change - nothing of me will change I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist change, in self interest and wanting to win as ego I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I came into this world as a blank slate - and I can revert again to a blank slate through self-forgiveness and self honesty and practical application I forgive myself t...

Listen to  this interview by Bernard Pooman for context I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to squander my inheritance instead of doing what is best for all I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to squander my inheritance through ingesting substances that are not good for the body and mind I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to instead of building my finances - squander them I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that having good finances is good for me and thus for all I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to squander my inheritance in free choice despite knowing of the consequences I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard my physical body I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not forgive myself unconditionally for everything always I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see...

Imagine T. Edison stopped when 100 prototypes of the light bulb failed, or your father doubted and didn't approach your mother - or vice versa, and the list goes on - Failing to act is the sure way to fail while success is inevitable in action - eventually. Relentless is the word. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hype myself to only go into a negative later I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that depression is an attempt to control my environment I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that there is something that I want that I perceive I can't have when I get depressed I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to enjoy the hype energy instead of simply walking the commitments I make I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to stop writing - instead of seeing, relizing and understanding that I will not give up until I stand I for...

What will you do for a dopamine hit? I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live for others approval I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a dopamine hit when others approve my behaviour or actions or accomplishments I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live for others instead of for myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that no one is more - or less - than me, so I don't need approval of anyone in fact I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe someone else is more wise or more than me in any capacity - or less I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget about myself when I seek for approval in others I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not look for my own feedaback in what I do first I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek for external approval in what I ...

Action: the fact or process of doing something, typically to achieve an aim. I take action for money, it's called a job - but half of the times I have to act without that reward - for me I postpone - my aim is to never postpone ever again I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I do half the things I have to do I will get half the things I have to get I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there is a time and place for everything and that I simply have to do what is needed in every moment I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that if I can do something flawlessly for money, I can do it for myself and my business  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only act if there is money to be made - or someone to please I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to act to please my boss instead of being my...

Tell me one thing more important than children.   I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that children will inherit this Earth, in the position that we leave it I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand up for myself or at least stand up for the children to come I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the importance of self work to eventually correct all that is chaotic in this world I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that children are the basic pillar of the future on Earth I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that well educated children are the key to a livable Earth in the future I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can get lost in movies in my head while the real reality is that this Earth needs peop...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear getting old and having body pains I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can be supported when getting old I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear getting old alone I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have about 40 years of life to make a good life for me and a good old age I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I will not reach old age I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the certainty that I will reach old age I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am not alone and won't be alone in old age I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there is nothing wrong with being a grandpa I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowe...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not apply simple self-forgiveness I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I don't deserve to be forgiven by myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek forgiveness outside of myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that there is no forgiveness - only self-forgiveness I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that my self-forgiveness will become more effective with time and practice I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear change I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear forgiving myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can only save myself - not others I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that whatever I resist - I must...

  Do you know Charles Curtis? Probably you don't, because the name is incomplete. If I say do you know Charles Curtis Bach? Then you may probably guess I am talking about the Classical composer. Get all the information to make informed decisions, as you may err otherwise. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear judgement instad of seeing it is only from ill-informed people I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that no one would judge when knowing all the facts I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being judged by everyone in my environment I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that judgement is like a gift, I can take it or reject it, thanks I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand I can't do nothing for people that choose to judge with partial information I forgive myself that I have accepted ...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I end at death I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe who I really am is finite I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in theories I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the practicality of life on Earth I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe Earth’s ‘limitations’ are so in fact I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that in limitation there is freedom paradoxically I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am free to express myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am not free from consequence I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to rush through life like someone that rushes through a task I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bel...

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have 'worst fears' I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear going back to addictions I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to overcome addiction I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that 'every step is on the way' I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am able to decide what I do in every moment of breath I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myselft to fear going back to old patterns and behaviors I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that every breath is a new beginning and opportunity I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am the deciding factor in what I do I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing control I forgive myself that I have accepted an...

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want the outside to change instead of me changing myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the external has to mirror the internal change immediately I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that maybe Nothing will change as I change myself, as I have to direct change I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become discouraged whenever nothing changes on the outside when I work towards changing myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the outer need a teacher in order to change and won't change spontaneusly I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I myself also had a teacher in Desteni, Bernard Poolman, the Portal, all the material and the Desteni group I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have to become a t...

 The system is pressuring more and more with the passing of time, it is easy to forget to see each other as Equals and not as competitors. I have friends that are in poverty at this very moment, and also in homelessness. Everyone can fall so let's make a change with Equal Money so everyone is supported. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see everyone as an Equal I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from other human beings by seeing them as competitors instead of equals I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to win at all costs no matter what cost of life the competition entails I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the reality that we are all One and Equal as Life 🧬 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be consumed by consumerism and not see how it is killing millions of people and animals a day I forgive myself that I have accepted and ...