Day 96: Dopamine Hit

What will you do for a dopamine hit?


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live for others approval

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a dopamine hit when others approve my behaviour or actions or accomplishments

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live for others instead of for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that no one is more - or less - than me, so I don't need approval of anyone in fact

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe someone else is more wise or more than me in any capacity - or less

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget about myself when I seek for approval in others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not look for my own feedaback in what I do first

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek for external approval in what I do before assessing it for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need others opinions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the behavior of looking for approval as dopamine hits can become drug use in the future - as the behavior of taking the drug is validated by the dopamine hit it produces

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the link of porn use and wanting reward from others as dopamine hit for a behavior

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider for myself the consequences of taking drugs before taking drugs

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that seeking for dopamine hits in approval leads to low self esteem

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to regard others opinions as more than my own assessments

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give approval to others as if it is needed for them to have a dopamine hit like I have

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