Day 93: Getting Old


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear getting old and having body pains

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can be supported when getting old

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear getting old alone

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have about 40 years of life to make a good life for me and a good old age

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I will not reach old age

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the certainty that I will reach old age

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am not alone and won't be alone in old age

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there is nothing wrong with being a grandpa

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and undestand that most of what I do now I will be able to do in old age

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge old age

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe life is too difficult to be able to reach old age

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to worry about the future instead of creating something 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I stop machining in my head I won't be able all is fine

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe there is any use in me dying young - there is none

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can support thousands if I reach old age

I commit myself to reach old age

I commit myself to do my very best to not die before my time

I commit myself to reach out in case of sucide ideas

I commit myself to remind myself getting old is fine and a blessing

I commit myself to remind myself of my grandpa who was fine until his time

Love you grandpa C.

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