Day 98: Push to Start

Imagine T. Edison stopped when 100 prototypes of the light bulb failed, or your father doubted and didn't approach your mother - or vice versa, and the list goes on - Failing to act is the sure way to fail while success is inevitable in action - eventually. Relentless is the word.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hype myself to only go into a negative later

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that depression is an attempt to control my environment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that there is something that I want that I perceive I can't have when I get depressed

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to enjoy the hype energy instead of simply walking the commitments I make

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to stop writing - instead of seeing, relizing and understanding that I will not give up until I stand

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that because I am capable of doing what I commit myself to do - I have no valid excuses to not do it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to instead of walking the correction indulge in feel good energy when I have to do something

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into the polar opposite of hype when I don't walk the correction

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that neither the good energy or de bad are who I really am as Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not walk what I decide to do and to not walk regardless of energetic feelings either positive or negative

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard the common sense that unless I walk practically breath by breath nothing will get done

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the excuse of fear is not valid

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that not acting because of fear is failing to act, so even if I do things or not there can be failure, and the only possible avoidance of failure is in acting

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that not completing plans is self-sabotage

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that if I give up I might as well flip burgers at mcdonalds

I commit myself to remind myself to do something or die

I commit myself to remind myself I don't need any motivation to move

I commit myself to live the solutions I know

I commit myself to avoid what I know I should avoid

I commit myself to be my own cheerleader