Day 99: The Prodigal Son



Listen to this interview by Bernard Pooman for context

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to squander my inheritance instead of doing what is best for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to squander my inheritance through ingesting substances that are not good for the body and mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to instead of building my finances - squander them

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that having good finances is good for me and thus for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to squander my inheritance in free choice despite knowing of the consequences

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard my physical body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not forgive myself unconditionally for everything always

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I walk steadfast I will not make it this life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am raping myself and others in my behavior

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rape myself and others in my behavior

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the mind as if it is private and I can abuse anyone and anything

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I purify myself with self forgiveness and self honesty I will not be forgiven at death

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live as if I will live forever

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist writing self-forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not face what I have done

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the opportunity that I have - in a golden platter - to forgive myself for real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that as long as there is breath there is opportunity

I commit myself to remind myself I will not live forever

I commit myself to stop the mind in moments when I catch myself thinking/abusing

I commit myself to remind myself that unless I forgive myself I won't be forgiven

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