Day 55: My Best Shot



 A dream. I was with a relative playing a kind of golf game. I had betted everything I own. It was my turn to shoot. It was an easy shot, but I didn't feel confident on taking it - so I let my relative shoot it. He completely missed the shot.

What I understand from this dream is, in life we bet everything - because at end we die - so it is best to trust myself and shoot my shots, never let anyone do it for me. Hit or miss, I will shoot my shots. If I don't do it I will forever wonder 'what if'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want others to decide for me. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that even if I miss it's best to trust myself and take action.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up on my decisions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be flaky in my decisions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not respect my own decisions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that failing at my decisions is me deciding to fail

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to decide to fail

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am making myself a victim by my own doing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have limited time to live my decisions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have to support myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to betray myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that real decisions are maintained

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can take real decisions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not love myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make false decisions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can make decisions that stand the test of time

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the future

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to fill a void with addictions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be gentle yet firm with myself 


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