Day 22: Win and Lose


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to always win and if I perceive I lose become angry

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe winning is winning, not seeing that it isn't necessarily so, winning is losing also

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that losing doesn't have to be necessarily negative or a disadvantage 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to concern myself with winning and losing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that my wants are not always the best for me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that wether I lose or win it is only a perception of the ego

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I get what I want it will be what I need

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that wanting and desire are but a burden

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can win and yet lose and lose and yet win

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that it can be equally a disadvantage losing and winning

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself have an outcome in my mind and what reality to conform to it instead of accepting whatever comes

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to not see that I have to accept the moment wether I perceive I win or I perceive I lose as it is not so, but a perception

I commit myself to disregard the perception that I am winning or losing - as one never knows if something is for better or for worse - as only time can tell

I commit myself to remind myself to not judge the moment or the past

I commit myself to remind myself that that which me or other people judge as losing or negative can be positive and winning 


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