Day 113: All for Nothing?

Yesterday I was almost run over by a car, in fact I was hit at low speed on my left arm, which folded the right rear view mirror. I was going somewhere I didn't want to go to. 

It made me think  - do I want to die like this, or change?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am the directive principle of my life - and that unless I direct change I will not get to any desired goal

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have desires

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that in life I have to know what it is I want to experience and walk towards it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I decide who I want to be - I will not be who I want to be

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that change is nether good or bad - depending on what my goal is

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear making a mistake - which is good to learn

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I create my own destiny

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am the directive principle of my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I cannot blame anyone for my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have exactly what I have created

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am capable and able of changing my life for the better

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have exactly what I want/what I have manifested/created for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself enough to do what I want to do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live a life of tragedy when I can live a life of fulfillment

When and as I see myself wanting to give up, I stop and I breathe. I realize I am worth fighing for and I don't give up instead

When and as I see myself overloaded, I stop and I breathe. I realize I can do anything and everything in breathe.

When and as I see I feel down, I stop and I breathe. I realize that this shall pass too.

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