Day 111: Piggy Ridin'

 


There is a story about a man that dies and goes to heaven, looking back at his life he could see that the periods where it had been most difficult in his life there were only the footprints of one person, while the other times there was two pair of footprints, one from the guy and another form Jesus by his side. 

How is it so? The guy asked. - That you left me at my most difficult times?

To which Jesus replied 'because during the most different times I was carrying you'.

I am not Jesus and do not believe in cristianity but the story is cool, while at the same time a reminder to not take too much on me, for example, but letting others take responsibility for themselves

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to carry others instead of carrying myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I need to help myself and should not be giving my power away

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that if something happens I won't be able to help myself if I keep helping others such as lending money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I should not put myself in a compromised situation by lending money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that if someone else does not make it by his or her means it is not my responsibility - period.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am not in a position to support anyone financially 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I will 'not fly' if I keep putting weigh on me by lending money for example

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that not all helping means giving money, but being there for the person also

Whenever I see that I want to help someone financially, I stop and I breathe. I realize not all help is money and that I can support by being there too

I commit myself to build my life first before trying to fix other's life's

I commit myself to stop wanting to fix other's lives and fix mine instead 




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