Day 105: Whatever it Takes


 There are billions who live lives of untold suffering and pain currently, who would do anything to be in my shoes or of those in 'first world countries'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the gift of life I have been given

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up even when I have everything

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the billions that suffer whenever I want to give up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand the extent of luck I have had

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that if I were unfortunate like billions of people are, I would like for those that are able to = to stand up for themselves to change the world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to argue for my limitations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let feelings of 'too much ness' dictate what I do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into depression whenever things don't go the way I wanted them to go

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into depression to try to control my environment/manipulate my environment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that time is of the essence

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow my emotions and feelings dictate what I do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how easy I have it in this life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I will not get anything done if I don't do anything

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put how I feel as an excuse to do nothing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sleep during the day

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to hide in sleeping

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see I cannot hide from myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I cannot save anyone only myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to save others when I have to 'save myself'

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