Ruben Journey to Life

What will you do for a dopamine hit? I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live for others approval I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have a dopamine hit when others approve my behaviour or actions or accomplishments I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live for others instead of for myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that no one is more - or less - than me, so I don't need approval of anyone in fact I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe someone else is more wise or more than me in any capacity - or less I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget about myself when I seek for approval in others I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not look for my own feedaback in what I do first I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek for external approval in what I ...

Action: the fact or process of doing something, typically to achieve an aim. I take action for money, it's called a job - but half of the times I have to act without that reward - for me I postpone - my aim is to never postpone ever again I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I do half the things I have to do I will get half the things I have to get I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there is a time and place for everything and that I simply have to do what is needed in every moment I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that if I can do something flawlessly for money, I can do it for myself and my business  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only act if there is money to be made - or someone to please I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to act to please my boss instead of being my...

Tell me one thing more important than children.   I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that children will inherit this Earth, in the position that we leave it I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand up for myself or at least stand up for the children to come I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the importance of self work to eventually correct all that is chaotic in this world I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that children are the basic pillar of the future on Earth I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that well educated children are the key to a livable Earth in the future I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can get lost in movies in my head while the real reality is that this Earth needs peop...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear getting old and having body pains I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can be supported when getting old I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear getting old alone I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have about 40 years of life to make a good life for me and a good old age I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I will not reach old age I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the certainty that I will reach old age I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am not alone and won't be alone in old age I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there is nothing wrong with being a grandpa I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowe...

Liam Payne passed away recently, here is some self forgiveness that could have helped.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I don't have a solution I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not ask for help I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I can fight my demons on my own without help I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the dark always wins over the light when issues are unresolved I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take drugs I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make the final decision to end my life I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that suicide is never the solution I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am alone I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am not alone I ...

  The guy from the ambulance said I have a strong heart. I tried to 'commit suicide' by tensing really hard my upper body, it didn't work, I was upset that no one was kind on that train I was on, only old hags and a stupid youngster. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to escape this reality I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have a heart attack and die I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I must be here with all others to solve this mess I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I can escape this reality by dying I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be man enough until now to stand up for myself effectively I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I cannot change this reality I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I a...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not apply simple self-forgiveness I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I don't deserve to be forgiven by myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek forgiveness outside of myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that there is no forgiveness - only self-forgiveness I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that my self-forgiveness will become more effective with time and practice I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear change I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear forgiving myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can only save myself - not others I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that whatever I resist - I must...

 Courage is what it takes to uphold commitments, self-trust, self-honesty, why don't I do it or better said how have I not done it up until now?  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not uphold my commitments up until now I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my words are empty I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the absolute power in my words I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that every time I uphold my commitments I become stronger and vice versa I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have what it takes to uphold my commitments I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I should not make a commitment if I am not prepared to uphold it I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am ready to uphold any commitment t...

 The great leaders of our time, of history were but one, and created movements that reshaped the way of living of milions, yet a leader that directs this world into Oneness and Equality is not only one anymore, but a group of people. Leaders are dead, Self Leaders are alive. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am alone I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that one does not know the effects he has on other people after a long time or maybe never I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can give up because I don't see results while the truth is that I don't have to see them at all I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I keep on standing up nothing will change that could have changed I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that even if I am but...

 As a kid one time I was riding with my bike in town, when it got a punctured tire. I could not ride it home so I parked it. I continued walking home, when all of a sudden I saw what looked like an abandoned bike. I looked left and right and no one was nearby, so I took it. I was happy again. When I got to my neighborhood some kid told me she knew the owner but I didnt understand the name so ignored it. The shit hit the fan when the brother of the owner of the bike found out the bike at the hands of another neighbor, who told him it was me who stole it. This guy told everyone I was a burglar. I could not explain that I didnt see the bike was unattended and abandoned. The bike had been painted with wall paint. I had to fix it before returning it to the guy. While I was removing the paint with gasoline in a small room under the building I was living, I inadvertendly got high. Suddenly the pressure on my shoulder was lifted, my head was buzzing. So here I have what I think is my conne...

  Do you know Charles Curtis? Probably you don't, because the name is incomplete. If I say do you know Charles Curtis Bach? Then you may probably guess I am talking about the Classical composer. Get all the information to make informed decisions, as you may err otherwise. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear judgement instad of seeing it is only from ill-informed people I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that no one would judge when knowing all the facts I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being judged by everyone in my environment I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that judgement is like a gift, I can take it or reject it, thanks I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand I can't do nothing for people that choose to judge with partial information I forgive myself that I have accepted ...

What is the Real value here on Earth? Gold? Petroleum? Gas? While some of those are useful, they are not the real value. Money is not the Real value either, although it acts as if it is. The Real Value on  Earth is Life itself. And we have to equate Life to Money, giving money to All Life equally and abundantly enough so that All Life may thrive and be supported to the last requeriment for it to live a dignified life. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget the Real Value as Life that I am as well. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value in things like money and other material things instead of Life itself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that the problem is in front of my eyes, in the homeless and the struggling  and the extinction of animals I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to poison my body for entertainment instead of using it to hono...

  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be noticed  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not notice myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I am not noticed maybe I am the 'lighthouse' that has to shine I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed mysel to not accept my role as a beacon for life I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be what I want others to be I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself to do what is Best for All I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I must give first to recieve I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that is only by giving that one recieves I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put myself down through addictions I forgive myself that I have accepted and a...

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to watch porn I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall for the desire and urge to watch porn I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not respect myself in watching porn I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I feed my addiction with every use I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can stay without porn I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take a definitive decision to stop porn I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand I can stop porn I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe porn is stronger than me I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put the excuse that I don't have a girlfriend to watch porn I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not believe in myself  I forgi...

About considering others and not giving attention to problems in my mind but face them in real time.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider others always in all ways I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be superior to others I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the effect words and actions have on others I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pursue energy in life I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pursue gratification I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of me only I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard others I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in less than best for all things I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compromise myself through my actions and inactions I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ...

Not expecting to get everything but to give. In giving there is joy, ultimately making sure that everyone on Earth is provided for, for all their life. Providing to yourself as well, giving yourself in for-giving yourself so that you can stand up for All Life. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not forgive myself  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not change myself so that I am able to give to All Equally in an Equal Money System I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put myself down in apathy I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the repercussion in not moving myself for myself and for All I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget how much joy there is in giving I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget to give in order to recieve, one and equal I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I must change ...

Living the word laziness, self-avoidance, avoiding the present. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the present and me as fucked up I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to avoid the present by sleeping I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid self-responsibility by sleeping I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to avoid myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can never avoid myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have to embrace myself instead of try to avoid it I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not embrace myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to k myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that dying is regretful is an understatement I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pursue fee...

 Bernard Poolman who I would call my greatest mentor, said to make blogs consistenty because from it depends that people will stand up this life or not, so it is very important. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow apathy to control if I write a blog or not instead of doing it as principle I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that from me standing depends other beings standing - or not I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that this process is Not only about me I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that many people can be supported from consistent blogging I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget that we are all in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I stand up - many others won't stand up - and viceversa I forgive myse...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be negative towards everything I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to have things that I don't have I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not appreciate what I have I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not write the blog every day as much as I can I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not place into perspective my situation with for example the people that is in wars currently I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to my living situation I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to despise my life I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that life is how I take it I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to get attention from others I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not give attention to myself I forgive mysel...