Day 81: Service, service, service


Not expecting to get everything but to give. In giving there is joy, ultimately making sure that everyone on Earth is provided for, for all their life. Providing to yourself as well, giving yourself in for-giving yourself so that you can stand up for All Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not forgive myself 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not change myself so that I am able to give to All Equally in an Equal Money System

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put myself down in apathy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the repercussion in not moving myself for myself and for All

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget how much joy there is in giving

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget to give in order to recieve, one and equal

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I must change for All to change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that time is of the essence in self-change as time is always against us

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget the saying by Lao Tzu 'Every step is on the way' meaning accept all that has happened and stand up from it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I accept all that has happened to me in my life, forgive it and let it go - I won't be able to stand up for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my life as fucked up while others have ten, twenty, a hundred times worse lifes than I do, if not thousands and millions - some have virtually only suffering

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that is in mastering the basics of my life that I have to work on

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I must help myself first in order to be able to 'really' help others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have it all like a 'piece of cake' as I have everything for surviving and thriving given to me and I have no excuse to not do it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become a consuming machine, irresponsible, that does nothing but consume

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the opportunity that I have in this life while others simply do not have

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that it is way better to face myself this life than face regret and shame in the life review


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