Day 80: Lazy days


Living the word laziness, self-avoidance, avoiding the present.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the present and me as fucked up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to avoid the present by sleeping

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to avoid self-responsibility by sleeping

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to avoid myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can never avoid myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have to embrace myself instead of try to avoid it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not embrace myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to k myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that dying is regretful is an understatement

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pursue feel-good things

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can do so much more

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live lazy days

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that doing tasks that I have to do are the same as taking care of myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not write a blog a day

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am not alone in this

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