Ruben Journey to Life

 I forgive myself that I have accpted and allowed myself to desire to have more than what I have, isntead of being grateful for what I have I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that being grateful for what I have will take me out of the misery of always wanting more I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have fame and be recongnized I forgive myself that I have not accpted and allowed myself to see the peace I have now that I am not famous or reconginzed I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not value what I have I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand the value of what I have in terms of my physical body and the life I am living I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be ungrateful I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have everything I forgive m...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to always win and if I perceive I lose become angry I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe winning is winning, not seeing that it isn't necessarily so, winning is losing also I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that losing doesn't have to be necessarily negative or a disadvantage  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to concern myself with winning and losing I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that my wants are not always the best for me I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that wether I lose or win it is only a perception of the ego I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I get what I want it will be what I need I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that wanting and desire are but a burden I forgive myself ...

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be contented with what I have I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look at 'what I don't have' instead of being contented with what I have I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that there will always be other things to have/experience but Life is not about being sad about what I don't have but grateful for what I do have I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be grateful for what I have I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall for the trap of desires I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have to make do with what I have and if I am not contented with what I have now I will not be contented whith what I have later I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the trap of always wanting more I forgive myself that I have accept...

  I have had to kneel to those that I did wrong to, and also in dreams I've had today, I've had to kneel and ask for fogiveness and say that I have stopped the behavior and will not do it again. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that Self-Forgiveness without corrective action is useless I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be ashamed of kneeling in front/to those that I have harmed I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the shame is in not asking for forgiveness to those that I have wronged I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that it is more shameful to not ask for forgiveness than the temporary shame experienced when kneeling to ask for forgiveness I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand the power within asking for forgiveness I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that forgiv...

 Who am I to say that it is a bad day? Well, if something doesn't come out the way I want I can say that it has been 'a bad day' but the problem is, to begin with, in wanting things to come out in a certain way. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want things to come out a certain way instead of unconditionally accepting reality I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that it is not about not doing anything to create my reality but in doing to my utmost degree and then accept whatever outcome there is - and keep pushing for change that is best for All I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to utilize fear of change in self interest to keep participating in activities that are pleasurable but not supportive or downright abuse such as watching porn. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I change I will become homeless, in self interest, to not have to stop abusing watching...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear becoming apathic and not write blogs    I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear time looping   I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I can possibly lose myself   I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having enough money  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear something going south/bad whenever all seem to go allright I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself to walk what is best I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am not worthy of stability I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear instability I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being admitted to the mental hospital I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself that I can walk within stabi...

Only self change can bring world change, but that don't have to stop you from doing rap. It is not what I do but who I am within it. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that who I am is what determines the outcome of my life and not what I do  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that not a particular activity can bring world change such as singing for example, but the collective/group can bring about change I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to change the world with doing a specific art form instead of realizing that I have to myself change for outer change to be possible I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to 'save the world' with art I forigive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I cannot save anything or anyone but myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise an...