Ruben Journey to Life

 Sometimes I think I am alone then I see it is AllOne. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am alone I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that it is fine to be alone I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have to do what I see I have to do, wether alone or in company I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am never truly alone I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not enjoy my own company I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that if I don't enjoy my own company I won't be able to enjoy being with someone else I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be grateful for having myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I ...

  There is a story about a man that dies and goes to heaven, looking back at his life he could see that the periods where it had been most difficult in his life there were only the footprints of one person, while the other times there was two pair of footprints, one from the guy and another form Jesus by his side.  How is it so? The guy asked. - That you left me at my most difficult times? To which Jesus replied 'because during the most different times I was carrying you'. I am not Jesus and do not believe in cristianity but the story is cool, while at the same time a reminder to not take too much on me, for example, but letting others take responsibility for themselves I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to carry others instead of carrying myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I need to help myself and should not be giving my power away I forgive myself that I have accepted and allo...

Compassion  1. a deep awareness of and sympathy for another's suffering  2. the humane quality of understanding the suffering of others and wanting to do something about it Don't we see that capitalism is like a game of monopoly we are playing in real time? You obviously see the many that go unfed and unsheltered yet, what to do, everyone ignores them so I will ignore them too !  The need of a new system is obvious and yet people does not stand up for it except very few, in time we will be many and the new system - an Equal Money System will be implemented. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry because people don't stand up for an Equal Money System I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have to become the best version of myself and that is all I can do I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look for change outside myself instead of seeing what I can do for myself first I forgive ...

 Sometimes when I say no I feel guilty, when someone asks for help involving money for example, although I have to remind myself I am not the only person in the world that they can ask for money and above all I have to assess my financial situation before I can say yes. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty when I say no to someone I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to say yes to people to not feel guilty  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be a savior I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feed my ego whenever I help someone with money I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compromise my situation with money whenever I say yes and I can't afford it to give money I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can't always 'be a savior' of whoever asks me for money I forgive myself that I ha...

  7:11 in front of Seven Eleven in Vejle. I gave my pack of cigarettes to an unkempt young guy looking at the ashtrays in front of the train station; I've been there. He was drinking and doing strange stretches with his arms, completely absorbed on himself with the hoodie on. He must have ran out of money with the alcohol, I was never a fan of this drug but I understand why people do - to forget, to make things endurable - while it makes things compound instead. I have a few coins on me but I know not to give money after many times I've ran out doing exactly that. This month I am helping a colleague from work that lost it all gambling. Last time I do it and not the last time that he will gamble - it's strong on him. I never gambled more than one or two hundred euros total but I took drugs instead. It looks like everyone is trying to avoid this reality in their own way. My hunger for drugs was having experiences, being more experienced in life, and possibly changing my life...

A calibrated mind that does only what's Best for All - that's the only goal worth pursuing I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that through my blogs and vlogs I am calibrating my mind to only do what's Best for All I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am imperfect I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that to believe I am flawed is an excuse to not stand up for what is Best for All I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I walk my process I will indeed be flawed I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take responsibility for fixing myself  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can take responsibility for myself and for All I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ...

  Today I had a dream where many hugged me and others danced, it was 'acceptance' and 'recognition' the words that come up about this dream, wherere I was hugged and a performance/dance was done 'for me' - and there were famous people around. I enjoyed it, even a cat came by my side and gave me affection. I wake up from this dream like I had longed for this kind of recognition that it finally had materialized in a dream. From this I see how I like and want recognition and approval in my day to day life, so here is some self-forgiveness. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want recognition for my work I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want recognition for standing up for Life I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not recognize myself and instead wanting others to recognize me I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want approval from others I forgive myself that I have acc...