Ruben Journey to Life

Sometimes obsession with something is needed, for example to learn something.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that commiting to study something is the first step to being successful I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that obsessing about something I am studying is a way to become successful at it I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I become obsessed with something that I want to study I won't become successful at it I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the practicality of becoming obsessed about a subject I want to study I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the solution of becoming obsessesd with something to become good at it I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there is nothing...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have more views in the blog I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that not everybody wants to keep up with the blog I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have to write the blogs for myself and not for others I forgive myself that I have acepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am more important than however many views the blog gets at this moment I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge as difficult to write a blog instead of seeing it is from the mind I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am prioritary I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I don't change its of not use to try to make people and things change I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see,...

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am perfect the way I am as who I really am I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the parts of me that are not who I really am don't define me I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I don't have to be hard on myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe who I really am is something that will come later instead of seeing that it is here as me in every moment I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am not enough I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how awesome I am I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put myself down I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am already my best version that I can be within what I have been able to achieve/attain I ...

 Sometimes I want to help others, and it is fine but I have to assess if I can because sometimes helping people comes from a point of ego/being superior/being a savior and furthermore I can't afford to help them. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the ego design of being a savior I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that first and foremost I have to help myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place myself in a superior point than others and want to help them from that standing point I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not assess if I can afford to help people before I do I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not assess if helping someone will be counterproductive to their process/path I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that sometimes helping means not helping someone I forgive ...

Yesterday I was almost run over by a car, in fact I was hit at low speed on my left arm, which folded the right rear view mirror. I was going somewhere I didn't want to go to.  It made me think  - do I want to die like this, or change? I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am the directive principle of my life - and that unless I direct change I will not get to any desired goal I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have desires I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that in life I have to know what it is I want to experience and walk towards it I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that unless I decide who I want to be - I will not be who I want to be I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear change I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see t...