Day 97: The Jump

 

There is a moment where one is sick and tired of being sick and tired, then the jump comes, but it is not about moving faster. You see, when riding a bike and reaching an incline, a climb, I used to speed up, and an older rider noticed and told me to not sprint when climbing, to simply keep going. Yes, it seems that we go - and in fact we go - slower, but it is what it is, it is the climb, so it will be slower, but we will make it in better shape to the top if we don't speed up.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, whenever I am facing something difficult, want to be sharper and faster

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand, that no matter how difficult a task is, I should go at my pace, normal optimum pace

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get frustrated when a task takes a longer time

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get frustrated when I go slow - instead of realizing a difficult task pace is slower most of the time

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am the creator of my experiences and should thus be patient with myself and with tasks

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be impatent with difficult tasks

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up or make an excuse to not show up to difficult tasks - instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that no matter how slow I do it as long as I do it it will get done

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to accomplish my objectives fast  - or I give up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up when tasks are tedious - by not showing up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that new skills have to be developed for new tasks and that requires time and patience - and it's okay

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not remind myself to have fun with tasks

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that once a task is completed I can see that it was worth it

I commit myself to remind myself there is no rush specially for difficult tasks

I commit myself to no matter how easy or difficult a task is, to face it at my own rythm

I commit myself to remind myself everything is fine when facing a task - it is not the end of the world

I commit myself to remind myself that it's better to go slowly than not show up for a task