Day 73: Endings


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I end at death

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to kill myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to kill myself figuratively every day

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not express

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be famous even at death

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to make a dent in history

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that dead people is rotten meat

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that judgement is lie

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that everything is what is

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have no shame

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fantasize with suicide every time life becomes difficult or boring

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to kill people in my mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that without shame there is no real change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear understanding

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to remain ignorant

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not test the waters of my environment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that no test is valid, only real experiences

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place experiences over Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have the best experience, while disregarding others experiences of pain and suffering unimaginable in the world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to torture myself with thought

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize I am everything

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have an outcome when living

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have an agenda when living

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to test other people

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that only self - honesty prevail

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to die before my time by abusing the 

body in any way shape or form imaginable and possible

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