Ruben Journey to Life

 What has come to pass I cannot fathom, conscience has awakened. Everyone has a conscience but not everyone uses it. Listen to your conscience as it will tell you, who you are. If in doubt ask your heart. If in doubt again ask your head. Why not ask the wall, the lamp post or my own father Newton? He passed away when I was 24 years of age, I never remember the exact year because I didnt' mark it in my calendar as a heavy heart. No. He was freed.  Now, what happens? Yesterday I went to Aahrus and started to listen to my consicence, to do this to do that. What is this conscience? Is the rabbit from Donnie Darko¿ No. IT is simply the voice of existence, a lamp post or your anus. I am not joking, you can talk to Uranus. Too. I was talking to a sign of the hospital close where I live I asked it, how old are you? He said 4, I said yeah?¿ and he said yeah, 1994 - which rings a bell because it is like the olimpics every four years, but I realize the olimpics were 1992 not 1994, in any...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I end at death I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe who I really am is finite I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in theories I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the practicality of life on Earth I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe Earth’s ‘limitations’ are so in fact I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that in limitation there is freedom paradoxically I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am free to express myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am not free from consequence I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to rush through life like someone that rushes through a task I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bel...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I end at death I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to kill myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to kill myself figuratively every day I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not express I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be famous even at death I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to make a dent in history I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that dead people is rotten meat I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that judgement is lie I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that everything is what is I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have no shame I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fantasize with suicide every time life becomes difficult or boring I...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can express myself unconditionally I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want any particular outcome instead of accepting all outcomes I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being hurt I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that who I really am cannot be hurt I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that only the mind can get hurt I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am the mind I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear asking questions I forgive myself that I have acce...

  Thank you for reading this lines, thank you for  not giving up, thank you for, eventhough you have some doubts, continuing forward with your quest. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear change I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear loss I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lose myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear fear I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be here as Breath I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe making mistakes is wrong I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear making mistakes I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the greatness of mistakes I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear love I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear missing something I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myse...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to give up I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that giving up only leads to self-pity I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am more than giving up I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the heart cannot give up, or I die I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand I am strong I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that many are struggling unimaginably in this word so I have no right to complain I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I cannot let myself down I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to chase good feelings I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am more than giving up I forgive...

 In - tuition: Self Teaching This morning I was waiting for the mall breakfast place to open by strolling in the mall supermarket, and it lead me to the supplements section where I intuitively picked up royal gelly, and I knew it is beneficial for many things but I simply bought it. When I got home I checked the properties of royal gelly and it turns out it is good for mucus, which I've had for some days after I was sick.  It doesn't sound as much but also today I was cooking and I had a hunch to lower the power of the hot plate when I was doing lentils, so I did, when I got back to it all the water had evaporated and I had prevented it from burning. This are simple things that I can do that intuitively I get the cue to do but before I would not do it. Another example is I had basketball t-shirt without sleeves on and before going to the street I thought of changing it but I didn't - when I was at the street it was a bit windy for a sleveless t-shirt. Again following my int...

When I went to San Diego I started to see it, but man, when I went to Miami to the second Self Perfected event I found a group of people that, rather than 'obnoxiously perfect' were rather of a different kind! I was able to connect on a deeper level to everyone I talked to for more than a few minutes, and it was super interesting to see how applying the tools of the group they developed themselves and changed themselves so much! I am excited as to what the next event will hold! I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I can make it on my own I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I can change the world by myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the power and strength lies in the group I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I am one alone but together we are a force to reckon I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my...

I am without a job on a kind of sick leave, the days were piling up and I wasn't doing much or exercising much either, but now I see clearly that I can push myself to get a job to get the ball rolling with money, pay of my debts and start saving a bit. It is interesting to say the least, that without money one cannot even choose what to eat, those of us that have the opportunity to make money should do it and change the world. If no one does it, I will do it. Shout out to the Self Perfected group, they are the ones that are Doing it. Techno Tutor is the way. Self Forgiveness is the way. Practical application is the way. Are you with us? I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let myself down in not doing much while on sick leave I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being too rusty physically for a physically demanding job. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not exercise enough I forgive myself that I have acc...