Ruben Journey to Life

  Habits can make or break you, either supportive or detrimental for self, there is no middle path. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep bad habits I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stop bad habits  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can support myself with good habits I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that habits can make or break me I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to not kick the bad habits  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that bad habits will only break me I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that good habits will support me and make me grow  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not give importance to habits I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that unless I kick bad habits I will only hold myself ...

When I used to plan for a day I used to hate it, because I would make a very demanding plan most of the time that it was not realistic so I would simply procrastinate most of the day if not all. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make impossible daily plans and then procrastinate on them I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not make it easy for me to follow a plan I made I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to plan because I procrastinated on my daily plans before I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive plans as strict and difficult I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that I have to make plans that I can take into action I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist planning my day because I used to procrastinate in the past I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise an...

 Last entry was on June 13, it's June 25, time flies and I know what I have been lacking, structure and discipline, structure as what to do and discipline as seeing it through. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can have a plan and see it through  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I need to have a plan I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that having a plan means planning I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can plan the best plan for myself and see it through  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that once I have the best plan I don't have to take shit from myself or others  I forgive myself that I have accepted and myself to not see that when I don't have a plan I allow all kinds of shit from myself mostly, and from others  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to n...

I am moving on from pursuing a person as she is not interested, as far as I can see. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be reciprocated by S I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the possibility of not being reciprocated was always there I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am fine without S I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have to support myself the same even if S is not interested  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can be satisfied with myself with having done all I could to connect with S I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need S  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can prepare myself for the next opportunity/person I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel sad because S did not correspond I f...