Day 49: Opportunities and Fear


On the fear of missing opportunities.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear missing opportunities

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear fucking up opportunities

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself in seizing opportunities

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that there is no reason for fucking up opportunities

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the future

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the worst case scenario

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the 'worst case scenario' is simply a fear

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing someone/something

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that what I fear is losing myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I cannot possibly lose myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that there is no need to fear loss

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that there is no reason for me to be afraid

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that what I have can be gone and I still be alright

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that no matter what happen I will be alright

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am alright no matter where I am

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am alright no matter who is on my side - or not

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that opportunities come and go, and even if I miss one, there will be another one

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not breathe whenever I am facing a new opportunity

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be fearful in front of opportunities instead of being grateful

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not give myself the opportunity to live without fear

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that what I have is always temporary except myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to grow attached to people and situations instead of seeing that everything changes and I can't make things to stay the same forever

Whenever I see that I am attached to something I have or to some opportunity, I stop and I breathe. I realize that it is not about fearing but expressing myself, and ultimately letting go. And thus I commit myself to walk into opportunities without fear and in self-trust.

Whenever I see that I fear fucking up opportunities, I stop and I breathe. I realize there is no need to fear, and that I should focus on expressing myself and letting go. And thus I commit myself to stop fear of loss and instead I commit myself work with what is here to the best of my hability.



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