Day 43: Time to Stop


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stop harmful behavior

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see I have to stop my old self before the new self can emerge

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be stubborn in not stopping harmful behavior

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have limited time, and there is the very possibility that I don't make it this life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the vicious circle of not stopping 'because I didn't stop before' which does not make sense

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not remind myself that there is another me on the other side of stopping my old self

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have to stop the old me in every moment of breath until the old me is no more

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not give myself the opportunity to become the best version of myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to underestimate what I am capable of in terms of becoming the best version of myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that both the old Ruben and the new Ruben cannot exist together, that for the new to arrive the old must go

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not commit myself to stop my old self of abuse

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse self forgiveness by not stopping that which I forgive myself for

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put excuses as to why I don't stop addictions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that at my death, any excuse to not have changed will be invalid

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget to motivate myself to become the best version of myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I don't change I am accepting the world as it is, with all its abuse and I am responsible for it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have it easier than 99% of the people on Earth, and I don't have any excuse to not change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to pity myself instead of encourage myself to change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide in sleeping

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have to take self change like a job

I commit myself to stop every harmful behavior

I commit myself to remind myself I must stop my old self in every moment of breath

I commit myself to stop whenever I see I am about to participate in a harmful behaviour

I commit myself to stop and change whenever I see I want to avoid facing myself in sleeping during the day

I commit myself to face myself in every moment of breath

I commit myself to push myself yet be gentle so as to not overdo and give up

I commit myself to never give up on myself

I commit myself to remind myself that if I don't take myself seriously no one will do either

I commit myself to respect myself


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