Day 42: Finances

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having enough money for my visit to M

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being stranded in M

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having enough money to pay for accommodation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having proper clothes for M

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can make the calculations of the money I will need for M

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having enough

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having a manic episode

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that as long as I follow the guidelines of my treatment all will be well

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having enough money to eat

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not managing my money adequately and running out

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear living in scarcity instead of finding ways to have and save money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my L for not having enough money to pay for it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the practicality of planning my finances

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have to stand on my two feet and not expect a savior to 'rescue me'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that it is not about fearing the future but about planning

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear spending too much and not having enough for M

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can easily make the numbers to not be in the dark about my finances

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to afford M

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having the money returned that I lent

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that money is simply mathematics

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I will fear money as long as I don't investigate my finances

I commit myself to investigate my finances to find out what I can do

I commit myself to do the work to understand my finances instead of fearing them

I commit myself to remind myself to stay frugal as needed

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