Day 37: Money Matters


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having enough money to survive

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear ultimately dying

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being homeless

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to pay rent

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not having enough income to pay for food

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to choose what I eat

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being put on the list of defaulters and have bad credit for not paying debts

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to pay my debts

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to get a job when I need one

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I have to do my best to not become broke

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that it is not about fearing things but working on things

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being poor

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that I can direct my reality to have abundance 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want someone to rescue me when I have money troubles instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that it is myself that have to prevent it from happening

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to not be able to get enough money even when I do my best

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to spend too much money and waste it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I have to help everyone, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding I have to help myself first

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that if I let myself down it's not guaranteed others can help or will help me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have to be self-sufficient

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hope I will get help financially instead of making sure I don't need help

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am grown up and should avoid financial instability

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am not able to help everyone financially and that I have to help myself first

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget the line 'self goes first'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I go bankrupt I won't be able to help anyone at all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to help everyone with money ignoring my money situation

I commit myself to remind myself that I have to put myself first

I commit myself to remind myself that if I go bankrupt I won't be able to help anyone at all

I commit myself to remind myself that helping others financially should only be done if I am financially stable

I commit myself to let go of wanting to feel good by helping others while I am not in a stable situation 

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