Day 4: Feedback

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect feedback from my process of change instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that it takes time

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not have patience with myself in the 7 year Journey to Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect everything around me to change when I change instead of seeing that I am the one that has to affect change/act differently if I want something to change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the common sense that I need to do something different or something at all to make change happen 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the common sense of 'if I do what I have always done I will get the same result'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want others to change when I change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the common sense that I can only ever change myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take it slowly i.e. step by step, breath by breath my process of change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look outwardly when I apply myself to change - expecting 'something out there' to happen when it is never going to be like that 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the simplicity of change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be recognized because I walk the process of change to Life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to recognize myself in the process of change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my reality will change when I change - instead of seeing that reality is not immediate like the mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want a McDonalds of change

I forgive  myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I should have zero expectations when I walk my process of change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I have expectations I ruin the whole process of what I could be and become

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe expectations are good because I 'get to see the future' and so wherever I go is 'familiar' because I see it from my mind first instead of seeing and realizing that what I can come up with the mind will always be limitation and not reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust my mind's future projections instead of seeing they are invalid

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the future is a mistery and the present a gift, and the past no longer here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the big comes from the small and that I don't have feedback now doesn't mean I won't have it in the future - And if I don't have it at all, I still have to stand no matter what

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to wait for the outward to react to it, instead of being the beginning and the end, the initiator of change as I should and everyone should be

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the way is 'doing the work and forgetting about it'

I commit myself to focus on my self process and not expect anything to happen in my environment and instead move myself to change what needs change

I commit myself to remind myself that Feedback of Silence is feedback too

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that silence is a good feedback too

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have support from everyone instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that I have to accept the reality as it is today that not many walk with or support people that is openly walking process

I commit myself to stop wanting reactions from people in Facebook or around me

I commit myself to remind myself that I am enough and don't need validation

I commit myself to remind myself that if I want validation, all validation I get will never be enough

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get the attention of others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to get validation from others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that it is me that don't give attention and validation to myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect from others that tell me what to do

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can't trust others because I know myself, no one else other than me knows what I have to do