Day 15: What was I thinking?


I can ask to you, why are you participating in wars? But then I watch inside of myself and I see that I also participate in wars within my mind and many times comit despicable acts that no one sees.


The wars stop within oneself first, as real wars are but the materialization of our mind participation where we are spiteful beyond belief, and commit aggression daily.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame others for participating in wars instead of seeing my responsibility of stopping all wars and conflict within myself


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I must end within myself all that I see outside of myself that is not best for all


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the best gift I can gift to everyone else an the world is the best me


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have to walk the talk in perfecting myself to show everyone = it is possible to change


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that unless I become an example of self change = nothing will change


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am an example no matter what - so better make it the best example ever - as this is my last opportunity and life


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that any excuse is irrelevant


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I will live for eternity with my acts here on Earth an that because of this every breath counts to stand for myself


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am irrelevant, instead of seeing that I decide ultimately what I make of myself - irrelevant or relevant


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the urgency and importance that I stand up for myself absolutely


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that everyone is waiting for me - but time is also running out fast


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I slack I will be rendered as irrelevant and all I could have been will never be materialized


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard myself, and in doing this = disregard everyone else


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see what is possible and within this - give up - instead of finding out what am I capable of by standing up for myself unconditionally


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not remind myself that I am relevant


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the word is too much, without seeing realizing and understanding that it is me that I have to change first, not the world


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put excuses to not stand up for myself


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that unless I stand up for myself= the world will not change


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see there is always something I can work on in standing up for myself


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide in any way such as oversleeping


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not remind myself 'being stuck' is only a false perception - and that there is always something to do


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being consistent, in fear of change


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that fear of change, if I give up to it, is accepting the world of abuse as it is


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that protecting the old is in fact accepting the immense abuse taking place on earth


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wait for someone or something to stand up for myself instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that it is me who I'm waiting for


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that by changing myself is how the world starts to change


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