Day 47: Expecting Too Much


Meeting someone new and wanting to make friends too fast, they are not interested but I couldn't see it when we were talking, so I fall in a micro-depression that lasts one day and then I see I should not have expectations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect from others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make movies in my head about how a friend/relationship will unfold

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in depression when I am ignored

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider I was too fast with the new person I met

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect from people I just met

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel down whenever people I just met don't reply to my messages

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I go too fast I push people away when meeting them

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take it personally whenever someone does not reply to my messages

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to condition my well being to someone I barely know replying to my messages

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to create relationships with others instead of being okay wether it happens or not

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let it affect me when someone does not reply to my messages 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to push too much/be too fast whenever I meet someone new

Whenever I see that someone new does not reply to my message, I stop and I breathe. I realize they might have other plans and or not be comfortable enough to met with me. Thus I commit myself to take it easy and not take it personally as they don't know me 

I commit myself to take it easy whenever I meet someone new

I commit myself to stop projecting whenever I meet someone new 

I commit myself to take it well wether someone new wants to meet or not


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