Ruben Journey to Life

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trap myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am trapped I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am trapping myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I can be trapped I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am trapped by my own beliefs I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe my own beliefs I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am a convict of my own convictions I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am free I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that my only freedom is to choose what is Best for All every time I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that none is free until All are free I forgive myself that I have accepted and a

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be famous I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that only by being famous others will listen to me I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be heard by everyone else I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire attention I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not look at myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am fine without anyones attention I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that if I am fine by myself alone then I don't need anyones' attention I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be recognized I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to  not recognize myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abandon myself I forgive myself that I have accep

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am alone I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I am never alone I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to take shortcuts I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe it is difficult to stand up for myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have to practically change myself and not try to change the world I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be hard on myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need masturbation I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up on myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that if I don't direct myself I will live out a preprogrammed life I forgive myself that I have accepted a

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am separate I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to find boring writing I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am done I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard all other life I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be special I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to go first before others I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that when I see I can't unsee I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear responsibility I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be done I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to make process instead of simply doing my best always I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe process is too difficult I forgive myself that I have acce

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I won't see all that  is possible unless I become self honest I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not apply self forgiveness consistently I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am not worthy of self forgiveness I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need to be 'more fucked up' before I can forgive myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I can apply self forgiveness wherever I am I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to romanticize death I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe death is a relief I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see possible that I become self honest and self directive I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowe

On the fear of missing opportunities. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear missing opportunities I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear fucking up opportunities I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself in seizing opportunities I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that there is no reason for fucking up opportunities I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the future I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the worst case scenario I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that the 'worst case scenario' is simply a fear I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing someone/something I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that what I fear is losing myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I cannot